Nothing but a fool’s game

O melodie foarte frumoasa, pe care am redescoperit-o cand am vazut cateva versuri la un prieten . se pare ca asculti si melodii dragute , in afara de Bsb, Rbd , N&D .. etc :)) .

anyway, nu am mai ascultat melodia asta de “n” ani.. Nu are niciun substrat, doar imi plac melodiile frumoase si mai “old” ca mine. doar ma imaginam intr-o seara de vara, in aer liber, ascultand this song si dansand cu cineva. nu e nici prea frig, nici prea cald, sunt imbracata intr-o rochita draguta si vantul imi adie usor prin par si el ma invarte mult.. mult (nr : “el” este un personaj imaginar, nicidecum cineva in carne si oase).

dumb test

deci, ma seaca testele astea.. orice test, il fac. pa bune, de nu. poate din simplul motiv ca imi place sa incep ceva si sa vad un rezultat :)). dumb idea, i know. anyway, a primit sormea un mass si dadui si eu click.. e vorba despre acest test . well, nu am de gand sa il dau mass mai departe, pt ca nu il voi da.. o sa dea minim 4 persoane click pe el :)).

asa, si rezultatele mele au fost urmatoarele :

1. la prima intrebare : in ordine descrescatoare : vaca, oaie, purcel, cal, tigru, vaca fiind pre primul loc. deci, in alta ordine de idei cariera e pe primul loc la mine, pe locul doi este iubirea, pe locul trei banii, pe patru familia si pe cinci mandria.. dap, nu am mandrie, se stie. neeext

2. la a doua intrebare : mi-a reiesit cum ca :

- am o personalitate prietenoasa

- partenerul meu este lingusitor ( :)))) )

- dusmanii mei sunt rapizi (exact ca taifunul : nu stii cand unde cum lovesc)

- sexul mi se pare aromat ( a nu se interpreta dupa cum doriti :)) )

- iar viata mea mi se pare mi-nu-na-ta! .. am zis!

3. la a treia intrebare :

- persoana pe care nu o voi uita niciodata : Flutur :)))) , cred ca tu ma astepti la un colt ceva si imi dai in cap pt ca te fac sa pierzi la Poker

- persoana considerata prieten adevarat : Gabi. well, you really are!

- cineva pe care iubesti cu adevarat : Gicu . nu mai e nevoie de alte cuvinte :P

- sufletul meu geaman : Roxiiiii . surioara mea draga! care imi face cartofi prajiti la 11jumate noaptea, de aceea o ador .

- persoana de care imi voi aminti tot restul vietii mele : Kiki. se pare ca ai avut un impact asupra mea :).

4. cica ar tb sa dau mai departe la 4 persoane si dorinta mi se va indeplini intr-o duminica. riiight!

in fine, teste stupide.. dar mie imi plac. v-am pupat!

!!egnin

dap, chiar ninge.. ninge! ningeeeeee!! N-I-N-G-E !!! aici la moi, in Berceni City ninge nene.. intre ploaie si lapovita , mai exista parti in care doar vezi fulgi.. am iesit pe balcon si am intins o manuta afara ca sa vad daca nu cumva stau eu foarte prost cu vederea. si mi-a aterizat un fulg in palma si am observat cum s-a topit.. deci, nu sunt chioara.. chiar ninge!

and i just looooooove winter.. sunt pur si simplu fascinata de fulgii de zapada care vin din toate directiile si ajung pe pamant si fac o mare alba si de mirosul aferent iernii.

abia astept sa ninga incat sa se depuna, desi multora nu le place pt ca ingreuneaza traficul si mai mult.. people, deja traficul e nasol.. so, enjoy winter! christmas is coming :D

abia astept sa ma arunc cu capul inainte in dunele de zapada, sa o tarasc pe sormea, sa fiu tarata, sa vad cum ninge si sa stau cu gura deschisa sa prind fulgii, sa fac oameni de zapada si sa arunc cu bulgari in trolee si autobuze. god damn, winter is so beautiful :)

Lifestyle

ma uitam eu azi pe niste “site-ulete” pe care ma uit mai mereu.. imi face placere sa raman fan(a) si imi face placere sa citesc multe kkturi.

azi am fost placut incantata vizual de niste “chestii” ca altfel nu le pot numi.. care s-ar putea gasi la oricine in casa.. stati sa atasez si pozele canapea1 . va prezint “Canapeaua Vacuta” care nu ar trebui sa lipseasca din casa nimanui.. deci, eu clar as fi in stare sa cumpar asa ceva .. arata asa ciudat si clar NIMENI nu si-ar dori asa ceva.. si probabil doar din aceasta cauza mi s-ar parea si mai “cool” sa achizitonez asa ceva. o luna – pe putin- as muri de ras cand le-as vedea.. si clar m-ar binedispune cand as fi posomorata. si categoric as asortat-o (canapeaua) cu asa ceva : Veioza1 este o veioza , in care o vaca este rapita de extraterestii.. cine nu ar vrea asa ceva in casa? :)) deci, azi chiar m-am amuzat pe tema asta, cu designul interior. s-ar potrivi de minune cu papucii mei de casa cu vaci, cu globul meu, cu vaca mea din jucarie care mai si canta pe deasupra si.. sigur mai fac eu rost si de alte “vaci”.. saaau, as putea sa imi iau acea canapea-vacuta, cu o blana de urs pe jos, cu un cap de cerb deasupra semineului imaginar, cu un calut din lemn pe post de balansoar, cu un cocos cu forma de ceas desteptator, doua pernute de pus pe scaun in forma de purcelusi si o omida maaare cu care sa pot dormi :D.. pt a putea avea o gradina zoo completa. asta intr-un viitor indepartat, cand ma voi face mare.

in schimb, “mi vida” se pare ca o ia pe o cale descendenta.. complicatii medicale combinate cu alergaturi dupa masini, urmate de aproape facut cunostinta cu pamantul.. asta in caz ca interesa pe cei care imi citesc tampeniile mele de aici.. si care se feresc sa ma intrebe de sanatate. puteti sa va feriti in continuare, am sa va furnizez eu material mereu :D. mereu le fac usoara viata altora.

in alta ordine de idei, am citit azi un kkt de Horoscop referitor la viitorul indepartat, probabil referitor la 2009. nu am fost atenta la toate detaliile.. si au fost naspa cei care au scris.. cum ca unul din zodia mea, va nascoci intr-o zi inventia care va duce la pierzania lumii.. si ca cea mai buna modalitate de a nu se intampla asta, e sa distruga toata comunitatea de “zodia mea” .. oh da.. sunt chiar curioasa.. daca persoana care a inventat telecomanda, nu ar fi inventat-o, donsoara/donsoru care ati scris articolul, ce cacat faceai? daca acesta era din zodia “x” te-ai fi revoltat si te-ai fi dat jos din pat la fiecare reclama, pt schimbarea programului? sau daca tot un dobitoc-cretin-idiot-handicapat nu ar fi inventat masina.. ce ai fi facut? te-ai fi deplasat in Papua Noua Guinee, sau unde puii mei lucrezi, pe jos? lucrurile nascocite de oameni, sunt facute din prea multa lene si comoditate.. daca cineva va nascoci ceva care va duce la pierzanie omenirea, asta va insemna ca v-a/ne-a scapat pe toti de un mare chin. pe noi, ca ne-a scapat de cei a caror prostie ne doare.. si pe voi, pe voi..tot pt noi, ca sa ne faceti fericiti.

imi place sa imi citesc horoscopu.. nu are nici cea mai mica actiune asupra mea. doar il citesc si instantaneu uit. dar il citesc! si uite ca m-am si revoltat. you people, who wrote that, S-U-C-K!! sper sa aveti parte in viata voastra anosta, de un “nascocitor” care sa va scoata din pepeni si sa va reinventeze si modul de respiratie..

never give up

nu prea as fi vrut sa mai scriu nimic.. e incredibil cum te fute viata uneori. si de ce spun asta? am realizat ca problemele mele prezentate in posturile anterioare sunt niste kkturi, pe langa altii.. asta e singurul mod in care clar pot sa trec peste.. uitandu-ma in jur si vazand cat de daramati, cat de praf pot ajunge unii. si cand zic praf, ma refer psihic, nu fizic.

as vrea sa pot face ceva, orice.. sa vad unii oameni fericiti in jurul meu. dar uneori ma simt handicapata, legata de maini si de picioare, useless. detest sa ii vad cum isi ineaca amarul intr-un pahar de alcool pt ca alta solutie pur si simplu nu mai au. sa traiesti cu asemenea stres pe umeri, zi de zi, sa nu stii ce se va intampla maine e pur si simplu ingrozitor.

chiar nu pot sa realizez de ce tb sa existe atata ghinion. de ce NU putem si noi fi odata fericiti.. sau in fine, nu toti, dar macar el.. el merita (el fiind tatal meu). si as face orice sa il vad indeplinidu-si visul..

this made me stronger and not to give a fuck about everything i wrote in the previous entries.. am realizat si de ce acum “sufar” pt ce am facut.. pt ca mereu si mereu am facut aceleasi alegeri : familia pe primul loc. i’m sorry guys, cine ma vrea , ma vrea cu totul.. ma consum enorm, din toata inima si cu tot devotamentul din lume. so, daca exista probleme i’ll wave to you boys and go fuck yourself. cum zicea un prieten “in life, don’t run after two things : buses and girls. there is another one just around the corner” .. permite-mi sa schimb “girls” cu “boys” :P ca nu sunt lesbi. asa ca incepand de azi, no more tears for none of you assholes :D.

<<’Cause sometimes you feel tired,
feel weak, and when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.>>

Bring it back

i just can’t write anymore.. sunt restanta cu un post (iap, i know) si asta doar pt ca nu am nici cea mai mica inspiratie, nici un gram de imaginatie, nada, nothing. nu pot scoate o fraza coerenta si nici macar una simpla cu subiect si predicat. my mind is full with emptiness.

I’ve lost my smile, my happy thoughts, my soul.. my heart . kkturile de genu “iubirea iti da aripi, sa poti zbura” se pare ca incep sa aibe un sens, pt ca ale mele s-au “stricat” probabil intre timp. Am vazut acu’ cativa ani un film pe Hbo cu doi tipi care erau “lipiti” din nastere.. spre final, au decis sa se “separe” si au facut o operatie. in momentul cand si-au revenit si s-au ridicat in picioare sa faca primii pasi “singuri”, au cazut. au cazut pt ca erau obisnuiti impreuna, pt ca daca unuia i se intampla ceva celalalt era mereu langa el; stiau sa mearga impreuna si acum trebuiau sa invete sa fie singuri..

poate si eu sunt in acelasi loc.. am cazut si incerc sa ma ridic, sa invat sa merg singura ..poate ca mi-am despartit inima in doua si acum trebuie sa reinvat sa “traiesc” cu jumatate. i must learn to walk because i’m not able to “fly” anymore. somebody stole my wings, my dreams.. sau poate ca nu mi le-a furat.. in goana mea de a fugi imprastiat, am uitat ca mi-am lasat tot ce aveam eu mai frumos la tine.. si detest inceputurile. imi plac lucrurile mele “vechi” si ma atasez prea rau de anumite chestii.

i don’t want to fall in love again.. i just want my things back. i want myself back, as i was before.

stiu ca daca se intampla sa ajungi sa citesti ce am scris o sa zici ca sunt penibila, ca eu sunt de vina pt ce simt acum si ca sa ma obisnuiesc cu asta. nu ti-am mai cerut nimic, pt ca de fiecare data cand am cerut ceva, am ramas cu vrutul.. de trei ori. ‘ guess i never get what i want when i want, funny right?

Love of my life, you hurt me,
You broken my heart (…)
Bring it back, bring it back,
Don’t take it away from me,
Because you don’t know what it means to me.

punct

I’ve lost what i,once had and

the only thing left is to feel bad

’cause yesterday i badly wanted

to bring us back from where we’ve started.

For you, nothing’s between us anymore

it seems i can’t walk through that closed door

to make you want me like you did , before

we’ve become strangers…

i only wanted you to know

it’s so hard to let you go

from my heart, from my soul

although it seems you want me so.

believe or not, you once have had

a big part on my first act

you gave me hopes, you made me dream

you draw life so sweet for me.

on cloudy days you were my sunshine

you were the one who made me smile.

you’ve said you’re happy without me

that you’re not who you’ve used to be

and you don’t give a fuck about me.

now i must end the scene

and go on and let you be free

there’s nothing left from what we had

and i’m sorry that this must be the end.

i only wish what’s best for you

forget i miss you and i love you.

“Once upon a time there was light in my life But now theres only love in the dark”

* **** you

Katie Melua- It’s only pain

It’s only pain
it only hurts
I’m only down on the floor
where I’ve been before
and I’ll be here again
though it hurts to lose you
It’s only pain

We went so far
we flew so high
now it’s not easy
to watch it die
just let it go
not ask the reason why
but it don’t matter anymore

It’s only pain
it only hurts
I’m only down on the floor where I’ve been before
and I’ll be there again
though it hurts to lose you
it’s only pain

It’s not my start
it’s not my way
to see the future in shade of grey
though I still can’t myself to say
that you don’t matter anymore

It’s only pain it only hurts I’m only down on the floor
where I’ve been before
and I’ll be here again
though it hurts to lose you
it’s only pain

Katie Melua – What I miss about you

Missing the train every morning at 8:52,
Sipping coffee from the same cup as you.
The sharing of secrets we thought no one else knew,
That’s what I miss about you.

The new way that love had made me see,
Your bashful grin when you asked if I would like your key.
The knowing way you used to caress me,
That’s what I miss about you.

You stole in with your starry smile exciting me,
Driving with you in your new car, feeling free.
If it’s true that love is blind, then I was blind willingly,
You made me feel we had a future, that could be and would be.

The way you said I’d be no one on my own,
Your habit of soaking yourself in over-priced cologne.
The way you turned the light out when I knew you were home,
That’s what I don’t miss about you.

I bet you’re using your weary magic like it’s new,
Driving so fast with a new fool beside you.
Presumably believing she’s the last of the lucky few,
I wonder if she knows she’s being lied to like I do.

The way I only doubted myself when I was with you,
Like I was a fool for expecting something from life too.
Your skill of putting me down in-front of everyone we knew,
That’s what I don’t miss about you

Alicia Keys – Fallin’
I keep on fallin’, in and out of love with you
I never loved someone the way that i’m lovin’ you

Oh Oh, I…. never felt this way
How do you give me so much pleasure,
cause me so much pain,
‘Cause when I think
I’m taking more than would a fool
I start fallin’
back in love with you.

Alicia Keys- No one

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don’t worry ’cause
Everything is gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything is gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

Alicia Keys- If I ain’t got you baby

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what’s within
And I’ve been there before
But that life’s a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, yeah

If I ain’t got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I ain’t got you with me baby

Eric Clapton – I get lost

I’m sorry.
Why should I say I’m sorry?
If I hurt you,
You know you’ve hurt me too.

But you get lost inside your tears,
And there is nothing I can do,
‘Cause I get lost inside my fear
That I am nothing without you.

You’re angry.
Why shouldn’t you be angry?
With what we’ve been through,
Well I get angry too.

‘Cause I am nothing without you.
Why should we have taken so long
To be looking inside of our mind?
Everything we tried went wrong.
Are we worried ’bout what we might find?

I’m sorry,
But can I say I’m sorry?
If I hurt you,
You know it hurts me too.

And you get lost inside your tears,
And there is nothing we can do,
‘Cause I get lost inside my fear
That I am nothing without you.

‘Cause I am nothing without you.
And I am nothing without you.
‘Cause I am nothing without you.
‘Cause I am nothing without you.

Keira Green – All out of love

I’m lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you’re hurt too but what else can we do,
tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn’t really know, doesn’t really know

I’m all out of love, I’m so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I’m all out of love, what am I without you?
I can’t be too late I know that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I’m reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can’t hold on
There’s no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I’ll be gone, I’ll be gone…

I’m all out of love, I’m so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I’m all out of love, what am I without you?
I can’t be too late I know that I was so wrong

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

I’m all out of love, I’m so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I’m all out of love, what am I without you?
I can’t be too late
I know I was so wrong

India Arie – Can i walk with you

I woke up this morning you were the first thing on my mind
I don’t know were it came from all I know is I need you in my life, yeah
You make me feel like I can be a better woman
If you just say you wanna take this friendship to another place

Can I walk with you through your life
Can I lay with you as your wife
Can I be your friend ’till the end
Can I walk with you through your life (fades away)

You’ve got me wondering if you know that I am wondering about you.
This feeling is so strong that I can’t imagine you’re not feeling it too.
You’ve known me long enough to trust that I want what’s best for you.
If you want to be happy then I am the one that you should give your heart to.

Now everyday ain’t gonna be like the summers day.
Being in love it really ain’t like the movies screen.
But I can tell you all the drama aside you
And I can find what the worlds been looking for forever.
Friendship and love together.

Can I walk with you in your life?
Till the day that the world stops spinning.
Can I walk with you in your life?
Till the day that my heart stops beating.
Can I walk with you in your life?
Can I walk with you
Till the day that the birds no longer take flight
Till the moon is underwater
Can I walk with you
Can I walk with you

This is the moment I’ve been waiting for
Can I walk with you?

India Arie – Ready for love

I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I’d quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I’ve been thinking
Maybe you’re not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I’ll say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won’t complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
I’ll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respect’s the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you’ll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice
My Eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love
I am ready

LMA!

ma simt restanta cu doo posturi.. chiar trei, daca stau bine sa ma gandesc. nu am inspiratie pt toate.

luand-o in ordine cronologia a evenimentelor si a mood-ului.. tin sa spun La multi Ani! cu intarziere persoanelor dragi mie : Roxi, me loves you long time si solly for not buying you a present yesterday.. apoi, La multi Ani! si lu Gabitzu : si pe tine te iubesc mult si imi cer scuze ca ti-am zis asa tarziu. La multi Ani! si Gabitzei , care a facut 17 anisori dar si a carei zi onomastica fu si ieri. Ar mai trebui sa spun cuiva? Probabil, dar acum chiar nu imi vine in minte.

anyway, roxi, dupa cum ti-am promis, cand te vei muta la casa ta, pe care eu ti-o voi achizitiona din potul cel mare castigat la Loto , o sa ma revansez pt toate zilele onomastice ratate din privinta cadourilor. am sa iti achizitionez o casa cu trei camere (minim) : o sufragerie + doo dormitoare.. unul va fi pt tine si “respectivu” de la acea vreme plus un dormitor pt multitudinea de porci de guinea pe care eu vreau sa ti cumpar. stiu ca tu adori porcii aia mici si scumpici (stai sa atasez poza) : Guinea Pig si ca iti doresti cati mai multi pe metru patrat. de aceea am sa particip, la urmatoarea editie de “dansez pt tot poporu”, poate reusesc sa iti indeplinesc visul maret.. saaaau, cumparam o femela de porc de guinea si dam anunt pe net, ca doresti sa o fecundezi cu masculi de toate culorile, ca sa mai diversificam.

Exact! doamnelor si domnilor, vom avea una bucata porc de prostituat.. vreau ca ea sa fie happy :X.

Si dupa ce ii inmultim, tu nu vei observa cand iti vor mai lipsi din ei, pt ca eu , atunci cand voi veni in vizita, voi lua cate unu in poseta mea si il voi frige si cracii acasa pe un platou, cu un merisor in botic >:) . dar tu nu trebe sa stii asta, mai bine ca nu imi citesti niciodata blogul :)). bine ca iti fac casa si nu iti fac rost de apartament, ca altfel trebuia sa platesti intretinere pt toti porcii tai si atunci probabil te-ai fi rugat de mine sa iti mai savurez din ei.. si nu m-as fi suparat.. hmm.. evil plan i have .

saaaau, daca tot ii inmultim noi, putem sa deschidem o macelarie. iti dai seama ca am da lovitura? la unii e o delicatesa carnea de porc de guinea, iar daca noi educam poporu roman sa ingurciteze porcisori d-astia mici, o sa dam o lovitura de stat.. asta cu carnea, dar ei mai au si blanita.. si putem sa fraierim si femeile, sa facem blanuri scumpe. vaaai, ma interesez cat costa o femela de porc de guinea.

am atatea idei.. nici eu nu stiu de unde imi vin :-?. anyway, am deviat de la subiect. porcii de guinea sunt f draguti.. ideea e sa nu ma lasati pe mine in apropierea lor :)). v-am povestit ce s-a intamplat cu iepurasul meu Kiki? nu? nici nu va doriti :)).

Life goes on.. and on.. and on

as putea zice ca sunt dezamagita.. de toti.. incluzandu-ma si pe mine in aceasta categorie.. sau ar trebui sa ma trec la categoria “loseri” . ziceam in postul anterior ca nu pot uri; imi sustin parerea in continuare.. nu pot sa urasc, nu pot sa port pica, nu ma razbun, nu fac cacaturi d-astea.. prefer indiferenta si mai adaugati voi scarba.

that’s how i feel.. mi-e scarba de mine si de voi. stiu ca am sa regret ca am zis asta, dar oricum doar cateva persoane citesc acest blog, asa ca nu vor fi prea multi afectati..

probabil va trebui sa ma obisnuiesc cu acest “feeling” si sa nu il mai ignor, poate asa voi invata sa ma simt bine si sa nu mai dau doi bani pe nimic.

mi s-a “comunicat” ca blogul meu are f multe chestii personale.. well, mi-as dori sa pot scrie altceva, dar nu sunt in stare.. imi doresc sa nu ma mai intereseze nimic de nimeni.

am scris totul in propozitii simple , alcatuite doar din subiect + predicat + alte parti de propozitie pt a putea fi perceput mai usor, poate cumva nu intelegeti ceva si eu chiar nu imi doresc sa ma obosesc.

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I’m still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And i don’t need you (NO ONE)
And guess what
I’m having more fun
And now that we’re done
I’m gonna show you tonight
I’m alright, I’m just fine
And you’re a tool
So so what?
I am a rockstar
I got my rock moves
And i don’t want you ( NO ONE ) tonight>>

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